ABANGSAPAU, Charlie Lim - Boyhood (Official Music Video)
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BOYHOOD

Directed by Daryl Eng Jun

Director: Daryl Eng Jun
Director of Photography: Daryl Eng Jun

Executive Produced by Def Jam Recordings Singapore, a division of Universal Music Singapore

Gaffer: Jufri Husne
Grips: Jing Ying Tang, Zhang Yuan Hui
Junior Grips: Lim Khengling, Mohammad Haikal Bin Hassan
Production Assistant: Jaypy Pillay
Colorist & Editor: Daryl Eng Jun
Behind-the-scenes: Raqim Ramli
VFX: Jon Tan

Stylist: Keyana
MUA: Karol Soh
Wardrobe: SPADES, ABANGSAPAU

Performed by: ABANGSAPAU & Charlie Lim
Written by: Shazuan Shiraj & Charles Lim
Produced by: Nabeyin & Prodbydan
Vocal Engineering & Mixing by: Prodbydan
Additional Bass: Harist Sunil
Mastered by: Felix Voon

Cover Art Designer: Jon Tan
Cover Art Shot by: Shy 4statine
Cover Art Location: Studio Silo

Special thanks:
Shane Tan, Vicknesh Thiagarajah, Rosae Tan Yue, Gieska Aulia Putri, Jaydon Chin Shang Yi, Yazam Sali, Studio Silo, Shy 4statine, Krystal, Dan's Nephew and Family, Big Mat aka Big Ounce, and everyone else who has played a part in this journey

In Memory of
Harjit Singh S/O Surta Singh
@ Shiraj Abdullah

Listen to “Boyhood” now:
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Lyrics:
(Refrain)
So tired of saying I’m sorry
I wanna die with a story
I wanna feel alive
I wanna see the light
I don’t wanna fight
No I do not wanna fight
No I’m not ready to die
No I’m not ready to die

(Chorus)
Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?

(Verse 1)
I wish life had an undo button, wish I knew my father
The more I live my life, the more I realise I’m like him
I never knew him much besides an alcoholic addict
and that's the shit that scares me, and that's the shit I carry

I wish I knew affection that came from a father figure
I wish I wasn't so afraid to tell her that I love her
I hurt the hearts that came to me, I take and never give
and for all the pain that I inflicted, I cannot forgive

I never knew confessions, take it all, make it a lesson
(never learn, let it burn)
Contentment in my wrecking
A lot of maybes, lotta ifs and hows and whys,
I asked my mama why she crying,
she said "boy that's life"

You gotta be prepared, just know your truth and never lie
I look at me right now and wish I heeded her advice
I took the pussy route, I took easy way out
You ain't no boy no more, lil boy, you gotta figure it out

(Interlude: Charlie Lim)
If I had my way
To do it all over again,
Would it turn out the same?

If i’d lost my way,
Would you still take me in?
Just take a chance for a change

(Verse 2)
Done with my head,
Done with my heart,
Now I’m just letting my soul speak

Skull to the floor,
Talking to god,
‘Cause I do not know if I know me

And I do not know if I know what I want
Every step that I take, I’m still feeling depressed
Stuck inside of a prison, repeating the cycle of asking 'what's next?'

But out of depression came rhyming
And out of the rhyming came pressure
And out of the pressure came timing
And out of the timing came lessons
And out of the lessons came finding
And out of the finding came questions
And out of the questions came answers
And out of the answers came healing, forgiveness and understanding that depression and rhyming and questions and pressure and timing all led to a diamond

(Refrain)
So tired of saying I’m sorry
I wanna die with a story
I wanna feel alive
I wanna see the light
I don’t wanna fight
No I do not wanna fight
No I’m not ready to die
No I’m not ready to die

(Chorus)
Would you hate me if
If I set the world on fire?
If I set the world on fire?

#Boyhood #ABANGSAPAU #CharlieLim

Music video by ABANGSAPAU, Charlie Lim performing Boyhood. © 2022 Def Jam Recordings Singapore

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